Your reasoning

So, why would you want a child living in your home, that you know doesn't respect you? That you know looks at you with disdain and superiority? Surely, it's not because you have a sense of moral obligation to be a good parent and to raise him properly, because so far you haven't done that at all (again, we refer to your refusal to provide him sufficient medical and dental care (even though it wouldn't cost you anything); your insistence on putting what you want before what he needs; your failure to take the time to teach him any life skills).

The only remaining reason I can think of is that you do it to spite me. But that's backfiring on you because I've already worked out a plan that involves Gabriel remaining with you until he turns 16, then moving to Ontario (where neither you nor the US or Canadian courts can touch him). And I've explained that plan to him. He doesn't like it but he understands and appreciates the motives. So, by insisting on keeping him with you aren't you really just spiting yourself? Aren't you really just subjecting yourself to the additional difficulties of providing for a child that looks down on you? That considers you below him because of your refusal to be anything more than a white trash pot head? Because of your inability to make any good or proper decisions? Because of your continually doing things that adversely affect him and not giving him any choices?