On the topic of "love"...
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Tue, Jan 21, 2014, 8:34 PM
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On the topic of "love"...
Desiree: Here, read this, then you will hopefully, understand that all that "love" stuff you keep going on about is, literally, in your head. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Emotion The provide a decent explanation therein. As you can see, what you and everyone else keep calling emotions are just a collection of physical sensations influenced, in part, by the secretion of chemicals in your brain, and in part by social conditioning. A person is trained at a very early age to think that they "need" to be loved and that love is a natural occurrence that they can't control. But that's completely false. What they are calling "love" is nothing more than their desire to have love. And the sensations that go along with that (e.g. sweaty hands, butterflies in the stomach, anxiety, grandeur) are all self induced because of their BELIEF in love and their BELIEF that the object of their interest (i.e. the other person) loves them back. And the big mistake that people always make is that they use the consequences of their BELIEF in love as the proof of the existence of love itself. For example, they say that love must be real because when they are around the person they love they get a feeling of peacefulness, or when they think of the person they get a tingling in their stomach. But guess what, that tingling or that peaceful feeling is only the result of your brain dumping dopamine, or serotonin, or norepinephrine, or a number of other chemicals and/or hormones, into the blood which eventually make their way through the nervous system and to the brain. So then you might say, "Sure, but it's love that causes those chemicals to be released". Wrong! It's the subconscious mind! People do most of what they do without thinking about it, because they've always done it. Since your brain has never had to consider an alternate response then it just goes with the default. And, since every song and every movie and every moronic parent who tells their 3 year old "I love you" and provides the child positive re-enforcement when the child says it back, and every advertisement and every other person around you is obsessed with love well, hey, then it must be real and there's no reason to question it or to consider an alternative reaction, right? Ask anybody (other than an honest psychiatrist) what love is and no one will actually answer the question. Instead they'll list the things that "love" causes them to do. Yet, all those people believe they are "in love". It's a myth and a fairy tale. Nothing more. And it's ridiculous that people still buy into it and base their lives on it and make life changing decisions on it and pound it into their childrens' heads. The most offensive thing is when a parent rewards a child for saying "I love you"! That teaches the child that it must be good. But how can something that doesn't exist be good? And then the child grows up, never questioning it's existence, and carries on the ridiculous traditions and belief system. You see, my understanding of love and emotions has nothing to do with my mother or the relationship I did or didn't have with her. It's the result of wanting to learn about it and understand it, because when I was young and had low self esteem and was insecure my belief in love and my desire to have it controlled my life just like it does with everyone else. So please save your misguided comments about my mother must not have loved me for someone who is ignorant enough to be affected by them. Of course my mother didn't love me - just like yours doesn't love you and you don't love Gabriel and Gabriel doesn't love you. You all just think you do because you think you're supposed to. Except Gabriel - he's too young to even care yet - children only say "I love you" because it's habit and they've been rewarded for doing so. Now, I need to go educate myself on more stuff because I "love" being smarter than my adversaries.
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Fri, Jan 24, 2014, 5:39 PM
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Re: On the topic of "love"...
Not bothering to read this. Not worth my time.
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Fri, Jan 24, 2014, 5:45 PM
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So educating yourself, improving yourself, and increasing your understanding of yourself is not worth your time? See my opinion of complacency.
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Fri, Jan 24, 2014, 5:46 PM
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Re: On the topic of "love"...
Bye.
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Fri, Jan 24, 2014, 5:56 PM
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Um-hm. Figures. Go smoke and bowl, you'll feel better.
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Fri, Jan 24, 2014, 10:19 PM
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I would feel so much better if I had a bowl to smoke! Unfortunately, I don't have my license and I don't have any pot.
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Fri, Jan 24, 2014, 10:40 PM
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I don't have time for you right now...I'm busily constructing my scheme to slowly destroy you.
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Sun, Jan 26, 2014, 5:00 PM
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Funny - I thought that was already well thought out.
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Sun, Jan 26, 2014, 5:47 PM
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Yes, it is, overall. However, life is dynamic and plans must change to accommodate. When will you realize you'll never be able to have the last word. You'll never be able to outsmart me. Because, you speak too soon and you speak/act out of emotion. That causes you to say things that end up not making sense, then you try to backtrack later by saying "you misunderstood what I said". Take, for example, the situation with custody of Gabriel: I have been trying to keep custody of Gabriel because that's what he said he wanted. And as long as that's what he wants then I have a moral obligation, according to my values and beliefs, to do everything I can to facilitate that. Otherwise, it's equivalent to abandoning him (in my mind), which is not an option (due to my personal morals and beliefs). If, however, he chooses to live with you, according to your way of life and wishes to assimilate into that way of life, whether such choice is of his own volition or the result of your skillful manipulation, then I have not compromised my morals. And, he has made that choice so there is nothing for me to fight for in that respect. You see? No emotion at all. It doesn't upset me in the slightest bit that he wants to stay in Arizona with you. It's unfortunate because it significantly increases the probability that he will end up like you, or Michael, or Kristopher (since that is the type of person that will be his day to day example of what to be), but it's not my concern. As a part-time parent I can only make sure that I educate him on things I consider relevant (like not becoming white trash, since white trash is, after all, the absolute lowest of all classes), and to be responsible, et cetera. But those lessons will likely be in vain because you will, on a day to day basis, teach him, through your actions, that it's okay to not have values, and that words will fix everything, and there will always be someone there to get you out of the mess you've made. I've also explained to him that you're ongoing reminders to him that if I return to the US you're just going to call ICE again (because you're just "being a good patriotic citizen", right) are really meaningless, because that matter has been addressed and it's the least of my concerns. I've been to Washington and California repeatedly over the past few months, with no complications. Moreover, how would you even know if I'm in the US? You haven't known so far. Since Gabriel doesn't live with me I don't need to tell you where I am. And as long as I call from, and answer a 604 number your simple enough (your words) to believe I'm still in Vancouver. With Skype you can have a number from anywhere in the world and forward it to your mobile. Anyway, eventually, you're just going to "go away". Eventually, you're going to lose your job, and you're going to have a hell of a time finding another one using either the name Desiree Capuano or Desiree Tomlin - at least, with any company that does background checks, and that's pretty much all of them nowadays. And you're probably going to have a hell of a time finding another man to fill that void in your life - being a single mother of 2 teenage boys, in her mid 30s - unless you can find someone that hasn't heard of the Internet...or another dangerous, multiple felon who shoplifts and uses meth. A good plan takes time and careful consideration. There are contingencies to account for. But the important thing to remember is that when you strike you must strike so that the opponent does not recuperate...does NOT get back up - else he may retaliate. For example, your strike (calling ICE) was really just a minor setback (though really it was a silver lining because it got me out of the rut I was in and pushed me to take care of all those little things I'd been postponing, like getting my teeth fixed), and it worked out quite well financially. So, in short, yes, the plan has been in place for a little while and I've been executing it, but as circumstance change then battle plans must be re-evaluated and revised. It's an ongoing process. For example, let's say, hypothetically, we worked out our differences and fell in love and decided to live happily ever after - clearly, I would need to make some revisions. Enjoy the hearing. I suspect you're going to be in a pretty foul mood afterwards so perhaps I'll leave you alone:) Fox